My son turned 5 yesterday. I generally post something on every birthday to mark the occasion but yesterday was too emotional to even pen it down.
Whenever I share his pictures, I never show the first on the left. I rarely see it myself. This is not a newborn picture but 9 days after his birth. Yes, he was a premature baby who had to be fed through a syringe coz he was too tiny to be able to suck. Everybody those who have kids especially Moms can realize the emotional turmoil those days would be, everytime I made that syringe, around 20 times a day…5 ml at a time, meticulously noting every drop of his nutrition. This picture gets me everytime and I remember those not so rosy postpartum days when I worried and worried and whether & when things would change for better.
Fast forward 5 years ( which sometimes felt like slow motion) and he gobbles up a cake, actually 3 of them and then some pasta, icecream at his birthday dinner , chugging along his juice and this Mom has to eat a lot of pasta herself to push that lump threatening to be a sob. :) Indian Moms measure their achievements around feeding kids anyways.
The day the infant picture was taken I knew this day would come but didn’t believe that it would come. As he crosses this milestone birthday, this before and after picture is to remind me that we have a new set of challenges, but we will overcome them and I can show off another picture like this in years to come.Again, I know the day will come but I have to hold on to the belief.
I am proud of how far we have come and how far we will go together! I won’t lie , it’s exhausting and frustrating but so very the best thing I get to do in my life. It is my privilege . Always your Mom, Aadya!!